Former WWE impersonator Jason Sensation was recently interviewed by Hannibal TV in which discussed why he tweeted out that he had got a gun through security at a recent WWE Raw event in Toronto and was going to shoot himself.
“I suffer from depression and some mental issues. It’s hard to dive into this whole thing but I don’t want to sugar coat it either. I have some issues with wrestling and I have some issues with how my career went. I’m very hurt about how my career went in WWE.
They (WWE) were in town and I was just in an emotional state. I was visiting my dad at my sister’s place. I had a few drinks with my sister. I passed out and I woke up, and oh great Raw is fixing to come on. My dad loves wrestling and he was getting ready to watch Raw from Toronto.
I went into my depressive state in that moment. Here they are in Toronto. I was thinking of who I still have a contact with in the company and they didn’t call me. And I was thinking of my friends who are not in the company anymore and they didn’t call me. This is very selfish thinking. I’m embarrassed to admit where my mind was at.
I woke up. I was half drunk. I looked at my phone and none of my friends who are going to the show messaged me. No one from the show messaged me. I’ve had some history with the company where I’ve sent out a whole bunch of shit online. I’ve definitely burned my bridges and they blackballed me from the company forever.
It was years ago that I did that and I say something stupid every now and then because I’m hurting and I’m just trying to get a reaction out of them. Do you even notice me? Why can’t you see me? It’s from a place of being hurt and never even getting a mention back. I can never get a mention back.
Triple H will sign the wellness letter program to me. He’ll sign it personally and sent it to me but I can never get a tweet back or a message back online. I feel like I’ve been so blacked out from them I can never get their attention.
I’ve been sending out stupid shit like them to year for attention but this is something that I didn’t even think through. I didn’t realize there had been a couple of shootings. The officer that detained me and handcuffed me explained to me about the shootings in Florida. OMG, I didn’t even know this was going on. I have been so out of the loop.
But, I woke up out of this stupid state. I felt like nobody noticed me. Then I had this very fast thought and figured this might get their attention (sending the suicide threat tweets). Ok yeah whatever. Then I went back to sleep.
When my oldest sister came home she came running downstairs and said, “Jason, you don’t understand what you’ve done.” I said it’s ok don’t worry about it. I’ll just deactivate my Twitter and I did without even realizing what I said. The next person to come down the stairs was a police officer. And I was like OMG, this is real. (laughs)
They were showing me that I was on TMZ. It came from a sad place but I wasn’t trying to get that attention. It was just me saying WTF ever. I really did not put any thought into what I said in that tweet. When I reread it I was like yeah thats f’n awful.
I’ve been getting nothing but very negative feedback from a lot of people and I get it. I’m not even gonna try to fight anyone on the issue. I didn’t realize the magnitude of what I had even said. I do deal with mental illness. I do have suffering feelings and suffering pains. There’s times I wish I didn’t even have to be here to deal with my own pain.
I don’t want to die. Don’t want to kill myself. When I had a heart attack I realized I don’t want to die. When push came to shove I don’t really want to die.
So…I regret sending that tweet out.”